When first of all its been TOOO long. So I hope everything is well with everyone.
I lost all motivation since I had surgery and I feel normal and I need to stop using the surgery as an excuse cause I am better then that. So tomorrow I cut the crap Ive been doing to myself these last 2 months. I DONT need New Years to change. I did it once and I can do it again! I gain i think most of my weight i lost before (20 pounds :((( ) . Will update this tomorrow with numbers
GOALS FOR THIS MONTH :
When I know ive been absent FOREVER! So here’s an update!
Weight loose was going great…. UNTIL. I got sick, I was having terrible pains in my abdominal area and after a couple days had no other choice then to go to the hospital!
After running tests they told me I had gallbladder stones -__- and referred me to a surgeon. After getting an appoint it was just a waiting game that I was sick of playing. I spent a whole entire week with out eating anything except grapes!
Had me surgery on tuesday, everything went well except I had high blood pressure for hours after. Very mild shoulder pains, also back. Incisions are starting to ITCH like crazy!
So after I started to gain my appetite back I’ve been being a total fatty! -__-
But last time I checked before all this I had lost 15 pounds and was still loosing.
Now I gotta get back on my saddle! Cause I’ve totally fallen off the horse at this point.
Hope all is well <3
You would think that since school has already started for me I would be sleeping by now. *sign* today will be a LONGG Day!
BUT IM SO ANGRY! I NEVER thought this would be easy but its just the start and im already hitting the pavement face first! I can’t miss this up for my self i need this! Mostly I WANT so bad. I have to do this, *sign* im so upset cause i had an off day and i dont know why i used to eat so much more then i did today and do it guiltlessly! But i guess i can feel that I cheated my self happy feeling of making progress or losing a pound. I hate it I feel like crying cause I KNOW i ate way too much today and things I shouldnt. :( WILL be beating myself up are the GYM tomorrow!